until my first fill. I am SO ready.
In all the pre-op counseling, NOT ONE Person mentioned that after surgery it would be an epic battle until you hit the ‘sweet spot’ of having the magic amount of fluid in the band. I really thought that everything would be hunky dory after surgery and I would go on my merry little way losing weight to the left and right .
I promised to tell it all in this blog and I hope that this post doesn’t discourage anyone from doing what is right for their body. But at this point I find myself *almost* regretting not doing one of the other surgeries. Simply because of the fact that there is no “waiting” period with them for the weight to slide off. There is no tinkering around with a tool to make it work.
As I’ve told you all before, I am NOT a patient person, and this waiting for a fill has been difficult for me to accept. I understand that there are probably very good reasons why my surgeon does not give a fill for so long, but when I read on internet BB’s and blogs that other folks got fluid from the get go…… Well it pisses me off! Things are NOT going according to my master plan at this point. Sometimes the thought of just giving up pops into my head, but I quickly squash that before it takes root and infests my thoughts. I can not turn back now, I’ve come too far and it would truly be a shame to give up when I’m (hopefully) on the very edge of the downhill (down weight?) slide.
So keep me in your thoughts these next few days and hope with me that the first fill will go good and will WORK. That’s all I ask, is to see SOME difference in the scale.
I am doing everything right. I am walking almost every day, I am eating decent, and I am finally drinking close to the recommended amount. A little reward for my diligence is all I ask. 🙂